Kurapika: How I wish he was real.. XD

Kurapika makes me sad. When I see him I want to smile even though I don't want to. When I hear his voice I want to keep listening his voice. When I heard his song. I wanted to cry. It was the saddest song I've never heard. It hurt my heart even more than the other sad songs I always listen to. I've never watched the old version of Hunter x hunter but I saw some parts in Youtube. Kurapika's world is even more deeper than I though. Not only he is risking his life to avenge his clan but his life shortens each time he uses Emperor time. One time, his eyes was once hurts. I'm so worried. It was so deep, so sad. It was so sad that I wanted to die. I feel like I'm at my limit of sadness. Not only I'm always sad but seeing sad things makes me even sadder. the sadness is so painful. It hurts my heart so much and it makes me want to die. The main reason that I'm sad is that I don't want to die, I don't want anyone to die but there is nothing that could help that and now beind so sad it makes me want to die.